Changing?
So the change may be happening right now. I think this is a time of personal growth for me. Face things that I do not wish to face. You know the fight or flight instinct? Mine is usually flight. I do not care much for conflict, but I have learned that even though I do not like it, there are times that I must stand. If not, I cannot face myself in the mirror. I have been facing challenges that have forced me to think a little bit harder. I do regret that this is Lent and I have not done as much spiritually. I'm in a hard place there. I am struggling to find my place. I may go back to the way I came, then again I may find out where I am is where I need to be. The riddle that I am speaking in is that I am struggling with the religion that I practice now. I think that while I am open, accepting and believe that God's love is for all of us, I am more traditional when it comes to me. My religion and relationship with God has always been just that. I am not the one to judge, I am the one to love. It's about "am I a better person today than I was yesterday?" Not "are you a better person or a good person?" That's not what it's about for me.
posted by Ann @ 8:02 PM
2 Comments:
At 5:15 PM, March 07, 2007,
Anonymous said…
Ann, You and I have talked about religion and faith and believing many times in all the years we've been friends. I understand what it's like to have the inner struggle and the questions about religion, even though I'm certainly not "Mr. Religious". If you ever need to talk, or just want someone to listen and validate your feelings, you know where to find me.
At 5:27 PM, March 09, 2007,
Caprise said…
Ann, I think you are very brave to be honest about your struggle with religion. Sometimes it's easy to just keep on keeping on with something even if it is not for you. My Grandmother always told me God doesn't care where you go to show you believe in him. It's about doing what would make him proud. IE Do unto others as you would have done unto you.
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